A Gentle Walk Toward Healing
Mary Farr, left, with JoAnn Hardegger, mother of Baby Brighid, the namesake of CaringBridge, at a November 2017 event marking the 20th anniversary of CaringBridge and launch of the How We Heal series.
Pediatric hospital chaplain and ordained minister Mary Farr’s new book, “If I Could Mend Your Heart,” has a deep connection to the very essence of CaringBridge.
Mary was a chaplain-on-duty in June 1997, at Children’s Hospital, Minnesota, when JoAnn Hardegger was put on in-patient bedrest during the 23rd week of her pregnancy. Mary provided spiritual and emotional care to JoAnn and her husband, Darrin Swanson, as they hoped and prayed for their baby’s safe delivery.
As Mary kept vigil with JoAnn and Darrin, the couple’s college friend, Sona Mehring, launched a website to keep family and friends updated. Baby Brighid came into the world on June 7, 1997, as did CaringBridge.
Brighid was so fragile; her time on Earth lasted just 9 days. But CaringBridge, named in her honor, is Brighid’s legacy.
And “If I Could Mend Your Heart” is a tribute to JoAnn and Darrin, and families everywhere in need of healing.
“In many ways, JoAnn and Darrin were a catalyst for me writing this book,” Mary said. “I wrote a version of it way back when, soon after my experience with them.”
In the 20 years between Mary’s original manuscript and its re-publication in 2017, she has devoted her life to exploring the worlds of hope and healing, as a chaplain, minister and author of four other books on the upheavals of life.
She calls “If I Could Mend Your Heart” a gentle promise that sunrise truly does follow midnight.
“When people have been through a health crisis, there is such a tender piece of time when they might not be up for reading a self-help manual,” Mary said. “This book gently points toward healing. It doesn’t tell them they will be fine, but honors what they have been through. It is a quiet walk with them.”
Mary said that even after a career of walking beside families during a health crisis, she still marvels at the simple and complex topic of how we heal.
In her book, she expresses it this way: “If I could mend your heart, I would promise not to say, ‘Look how well you’re handling things,’ or ‘Cheer up, God wouldn’t give you more than you could handle,’ or ‘You’ll be over this soon.’
“Instead, I would whisper in your ear, ‘We live in a fragile and imperfect world tinged by brokenness and cloaked in unanswered questions. Some things truly aren’t fair. This is hard.’”
In her experience, Mary has seen people choose to heal, even when restored health is not an outcome. And she has seen others choose to take steps that are likely to foster healing.
For families whose hearts are open to healing, and for those who deeply wish to help, Mary offers these words of wisdom:
- “In difficult times, we are not being punished by the universe. Our lives are part of a whole. We can anticipate and count on future good. It may not be the same light, but it can be a light. This is where I like to point people.”
- “A retired Episcopalian bishop at a conference I recently attended offered a compelling idea — our real purpose in life is to walk one another home. You have an open invitation to walk beside someone during a journey. Make meaning of it.”
- “We need to learn to be courageous, both in asking for help and accepting help. If you find this frightening or uncomfortable, think of the many doorways you can enter through. The work of healing begins after the crisis. Be present for that.”